I couldn't handle the post dramatic stress so i decided to commit suicide. I don't know when, how, where yet but i'm committing suicide. God damn Vietnam I hate y'all motherfuckers. Even though the war is ovar, I still protest the war just cause I can and I will til I die or commit suicide.

After the war i'm gonna go home and start a farm. I'm gonna buy a shit load of John Deere tractors. It's gonna be a 200 acre farm and i'll farm it til the day i die. I'm gonna have a family and pass the farm down to my kids.

Kiowa died in the shitfield. We searched the whole thing and we found him so we put him in the river to float down stream. Everybody is blaming themselves fer his death sayin it wouldnt of happened if I was there fightin along side him. But we all know we weren't responsible fer his death so I don't know why we're blamin ourselves fer his death. I can't wait ta get out of this god fer sakin shithole.

We set up a base in a church and Kiowa didn't think it was a good idear. I think whatever Jimmy wants ta do is what we do. We were set up in that church fer a week which felt like a year to me. Then we found a girl dancin outside her house with the rest of the family dead inside. I think this Shit is pointless, but i'll do it if i have to.